Salam :)
Tadi tetiba teringat kat arwah Syuk. haha. Teringat waktu last keluar dengan dia. Dia sangat hyper happy. Tetiba dia ckp kat aku macam ni "Bie, nanti I dah takda your life has to go on no matter what and kadang-kadang hidup ni kita tak bole terlampau keras hati where sometimes when we have to cry, we have to cry eventhough if its in public" and as usual aku cakap "Apa nonsense you cakap ni? Tak payah buat cerita sedih kat sini. haha." Then dia pun gelak *tak bole tahan dia ni :P* Then next day aku rasa macam tak sedap hati sebab dia text aku macam ni "Bie, I love you". Aku terkejut and try cover rasa terkejut tu aku rply "apsl ni?" Then dia reply "Saja. Rindu. Takut tak sempat." Aku pun reply "Haha. U bukan nak pi mana-mana pun." Then dia reply "I'm going somewhere." Then aku reply balik "Somewhere? somewhere to where?" Dia reply "ahaha. sayang jugak u kat i. i was just joking." Knowinghim as a joker and suka buat orang cuak, aku takdela terkejut sangat but terkejut la jugak. ada jugak rasa tak sedap hati. Then midnight tu dia call cakap kalau dia dah tkda aku kena study hard, sayang semua orang and jangan lupa yang dia sangat-sangat sayang kat aku. And mlm tu serious shit aku nangis. Aku tktau kenapa but memang aku nangis. haha. Then next day dengan rasa tak sedap hati aku keluar dengan member2 dia(ramai okay) but dia tak ada. Lagilah rasa tak sedap hati. After balik aku lalu umah dia and parents dia nmpk motor dia ada but banayk gila kereta kat rumah dia *thinking like maybe ada guest kot* Then malam lepas maghrib tu member dia call suruh datang hospital. Dengan rasa terkejut aku tanya asl. Then dia ckp one word je-Syuk. Memang terus terbang pergi hospital and nmpk mak dia tgh nangis and member dia ckp kat aku yang dia dah takda. Masa tu Allah je yang tau apa aku rasa. Time tu jugak aku nangis. Bayangkan orang yang selalu ada untuk kau tetiba kau tau yang dia dah takda. Aku ada kat rumah dia masa diaorg nk mandi, solat and kafankan jenazah tu *mmg cnfrm mata bengkak gila* however masa diaorg nk bwk pegi kebumi aku terus balik rumah. Masa tu aku sangat-sangat tak kuat so thinking tht rather aku nangis dkt kubur dia baik aku nangis kat umah. Waktu tu aku cnfrm mmbe and family mst marah gila kat aku. Lepas settle kebumi semua mmbe dia serang rumah aku ckpaku tak responsible and mcm2 sbb tak ada masa semua org bg last rspect kat dia. Tapi lepas aku explain elok2 kat diaorg, alhmdulillah diaorg fhm.
Whatever it is, aku confident sangat yang theres always something called " hikmah " behind everything. Trying to be positive, theres a few hikamh that I could think of like :
- At least I know that once upon a time I have someone who really loves me till the end of his life.
- At least I know tht I had it once but neve know when it could happen again.
- At least I know who is Ahmad Syukri b. Mohd Yani-a man of words.
- At least I know who really care about me *truefriends called me everyday motivating me at tht time*
- What happened really taught me to be more stronger.
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